As Mother’s Day quickly approaches, my thoughts have been filled with my journey to motherhood. There were years that I didn’t know if I would have the privilege of being called “Mama” and so many days that I questioned why God would give me such a deep desire to be something that I could not humanly achieve.
My personal journey to motherhood has been full of unexpected turns and unfamiliar territory. Even now, it’s so much different than I could have imagined. So many times I find myself falling to my own expectations of who I thought I would be as a mother. There are times I must of lower the bar I’ve set for myself yet again to survive another stage. There are times that I am giving it my all and know it’s still not enough.
And then there are times that I find delight in the small moments of motherhood, like taking them to throw rocks into a nearby creek. Frequent moments that I look at my boys from afar and soak in once again that they are truly a gift from God. Suddenly I’m hit with the reality that this is my journey. These tender, adventurous, rowdy, simple, sweet, messy, busy, affectionate, crazy-filled days are my own fleeting days of motherhood.
Whatever may lie ahead in my path, I am grateful for this role and humbled by this responsibility. My purpose is defined as I journey ahead down the unexpected, challenging, and joy-filled path of motherhood.
Psalm 25:4,5 “Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.”
8 comments:
So true.
You write it so well.
Love!
Wow - what a great post. As I was reading it, I had tears in my eyes and it was so much of what I've been feeling. My journey to motherhood was a longer road than I imagined and I, too, questioned so many things. I get frustrated with myself when I can't seem to enjoy the little things or seem to fall short of my expectations.
Thank you for being open, honest and reminding me to step back and breathe. Hugs from one mom to a great one!
Julie in Indiana
Amazing story!
Thanks for sharing. You touched my heart as I read your words. I find it hard to put into words my experience as a mother also but I think you did a fantastic job. I don't know how anyone does it without the Lord's help each day.
You are doing an amazing job raising your boys :)
Very well said. I love this post.
Lovely post. Very well said. I struggled with inferlity too and agree with your thoughts about motherhood. You are a great mom.
As I wipe the tears I give out a hearty AMEN!
Mandy
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